I know this has been my challenge for quite some time because I have been mentally overwhelmed and emotionally distracted, the 2 are common deterrents. Not a good combination for efficiency or effectiveness. Even now I find the BECAUSE word that explains the reason? Is just a perfect frustrated excuse and helps me forgive myself. That pity party didn't last long it was replaced with anger it's just a nice way of saying: I gave up and quit on me. I truly believe moving the needle also involves refocusing/calming the mind and removing the mind chatter just to be in the moment of now and the most important. What's worse? I used to know how to do this and the fact I lost my way in it? disturbing. I'm being very hard on myself because I have PTSD/CPTSD with generalized anxiety disorder and the ADHD with the expectation that I should be able to function better regardless of their daily interruptions. It's only natural to succumb to mental laziness or be low of mental energy when you feel you are losing battles daily on the mind field. What motivates us is pivotal. Being honest about what is distracting you is a good place to start. Paul I found my motivation today: the truth I gave up and quit on me is unacceptable and sad. The truth that I don't have a support system can't stop me from trying regardless if I feel alone in this. The fact I feel so overwhelmed I'd rather die than deal with the why it is a constant battle or it pains me when I feel I suffer for lack of my mind operating on the level I know I used to before the PTSD? The pain and the battle for my mind is a distraction to just living even. I don't have to accept that my reality looks bleak by what others think, or even allow their opinion to be a distraction or even allow it to exist or be spoken. Which again has been another distraction and deterrent to my better function and the same for anyone else. The fact we fail to mentally protect ourselves from toxic people makes us more susceptible than we realize until the damage is done by allowing them to remain or be in our social circles even. We can't afford being naive or nice when that weapon exists. Moving the needle or the focus challenge is what I call shifting. Shifting is my mental power word and mind Drifting is when I have lost my focus word. I need to give my mind the recognition it needs that it is a creative reinventing brilliant resilient mind and feed it accordingly and get rid of the mind clutter and junk. Most folks aren't specialized enough to help what is going on right now in this head of mine and those that can my finances can't afford the luxury. Paul, a perfect goal for me is to eventually be well enough that I can help build a nationwide non for profit organization designed as a support group for PTSD victims. Folks have their AA and NA, why isn't there one for PTSD/CPTSD? Our numbers are just as high as others with their addictions. What a lofty goal right? My neuropsychiatrist said well we may have found the right person, why don't you do it? So thank you for your messages. You give the truth and I have plenty of conviction. Thank you for the difference you make and are making. Thank you for giving me hope to believe I can recover my life with the tools you are sharing and that it has provoked me. I wish I could have someone like you in my life regularly. But I'll start with reading your emails and make it a priority because I deserve better and the chance at a more peaceful productive life. I am starting this morning with a clean slate but with a solid purpose and focus. I will journal this as my reminder. You have my gratitude. Sincerely, Sonja
Thank you for taking the time to write such a detailed reply and for being so open with your story. I'm glad you found this useful and good luck with the new venture.
We often don't spend enough considering which direction to run, before running as fast as we can. This reminds me so much of the first half of Sam Altman's post called http://blog.samaltman.com/productivity. Paring it down to what's most important is hard but correct!
I truly believe moving the needle also involves refocusing/calming the mind and removing the mind chatter just to be in the moment of now and the most important. What's worse? I used to know how to do this and the fact I lost my way in it? disturbing. I'm being very hard on myself because I have PTSD/CPTSD with generalized anxiety disorder and the ADHD with the expectation that I should be able to function better regardless of their daily interruptions. It's only natural to succumb to mental laziness or be low of mental energy when you feel you are losing battles daily on the mind field. What motivates us is pivotal. Being honest about what is distracting you is a good place to start.
Paul I found my motivation today: the truth I gave up and quit on me is unacceptable and sad. The truth that I don't have a support system can't stop me from trying regardless if I feel alone in this. The fact I feel so overwhelmed I'd rather die than deal with the why it is a constant battle or it pains me when I feel I suffer for lack of my mind operating on the level I know I used to before the PTSD? The pain and the battle for my mind is a distraction to just living even.
I don't have to accept that my reality looks bleak by what others think, or even allow their opinion to be a distraction or even allow it to exist or be spoken. Which again has been another distraction and deterrent to my better function and the same for anyone else. The fact we fail to mentally protect ourselves from toxic people makes us more susceptible than we realize until the damage is done by allowing them to remain or be in our social circles even. We can't afford being naive or nice when that weapon exists. Moving the needle or the focus challenge is what I call shifting. Shifting is my mental power word and mind Drifting is when I have lost my focus word.
I need to give my mind the recognition it needs that it is a creative reinventing brilliant resilient mind and feed it accordingly and get rid of the mind clutter and junk.
Most folks aren't specialized enough to help what is going on right now in this head of mine and those that can my finances can't afford the luxury.
Paul, a perfect goal for me is to eventually be well enough that I can help build a nationwide non for profit organization designed as a support group for PTSD victims. Folks have their AA and NA, why isn't there one for PTSD/CPTSD? Our numbers are just as high as others with their addictions. What a lofty goal right? My neuropsychiatrist said well we may have found the right person, why don't you do it?
So thank you for your messages. You give the truth and I have plenty of conviction. Thank you for the difference you make and are making. Thank you for giving me hope to believe I can recover my life with the tools you are sharing and that it has provoked me. I wish I could have someone like you in my life regularly. But I'll start with reading your emails and make it a priority because I deserve better and the chance at a more peaceful productive life.
I am starting this morning with a clean slate but with a solid purpose and focus. I will journal this as my reminder. You have my gratitude.
Sincerely,
Sonja
This reminds me so much of the first half of Sam Altman's post called http://blog.samaltman.com/productivity.
Paring it down to what's most important is hard but correct!